humility

The more I look at all the posts on this blog, the more inferior I feel.


Am I really that pretentious?

I don't really know anymore. In an effort to improve my level of humility, I'm giving up everything I don't need. I want my happiness to be totally unrelated to the quality or quantity of the material luxuries I possess. I'm sick of being a slave to currency and consumerism.

I started to deposit more and more money instead of spending it. Last night I threw out all my makeup.

no more nightmares... I hope

I keep having those "I want to go home" kind of days,
but at least I finally had a good dream. It was about cliff diving.

rant

I've been dragged through the dirt for years now
In a week it will be two.

another musing

When he has an orgasm, his facial expression makes him look like an angel. I wish I could see it long enough to paint a portrait.

eighty minutes' musings.

Musing #1

I conjecture about the evolutionary aspects of sexual intercourse (especially the preliminary arousal) a lot. I like to think about the tiny, sharp intake of air I breathe in whenever I feel a naked body against mine. I wonder, is that gasp a product of the pheromones he or she produces? Is it the direct result of his or her inherent desire to mate, and, ultimately, reproduce? Is it my body displaying the symptoms of desire for another? Most of all, is it a profound glimpse into the nature of one of the deepest instincts the human race possesses? ...Is it all in my head?

Musing #2

I want to do my senior paper about either a) the emotions of non-humanoid organisms depicted in poetry, or b) the usage of hard drugs. Those are, of course, only ideas I'm tossing around. If I were to choose one of the two, I'd probably go for the topic that would inspire the most controversy and would be the hardest to get Mrs. Mills to approve. However, the paper on emotions would be considerably more original and insightful, I think.

Musing #3

I think I've become somewhat of a know-it-all. I'm not sure how to feel about this development.

Musing #4

It would be really nice to be thinner. I want to be as small as possible when I'm older.

Musing #5

No on Prop 23, Californians!